From the moment we see the positive test whether it’s those two little lines, a smiley face or the word positive, we are filled with a million emotions and questions.
Will I be a good enough mom? Will I have the patience to teach this little human right from wrong? Will I even have time to do my makeup anymore?? Ahh!! I’m going to be a zombie.
Then we go back to actually think about this baby who we lost track of in this emotional roller coaster. It’s a never-ending battle in our brain thinking about yourself and then,oh yeah, right, I’m growing a human who I’m going to have to take care of too. Once again our brain wanders off.
The process repeats itself over and over almost daily or every 5 minutes in my case.
I count the days until I have an ultrasound so I can actually wrap my head around the fact that in less than 9 months I will be holding a baby.
9 months is a really long time when your waiting for something so precious. 9 months is an eternity not only because of all the physical changes your body is going through and the emotional roller coaster you have been dealing with but the anticipation of wanting to know everything will be okay.
I now look at this 20 lbs 28.5 in, 9 month old baby and all those worries go away.
9 months of life. Now I just sit and stare at him because…well because time sure does fly.
I never understood what everyone meant when they said “enjoy every moment while they are little because time flies”. Now as I watch him play, cry, laugh, yell….all I think about is “when did I blink?”. It’s not always easy to balance life but that moment when those big brown eyes look up at you and give you the biggest smile, that moment is what makes everything worth trying and moving forward.
Some days are tough, some are a breeze. At the end of the day as a mom I feel so grateful for having this opportunity, this gift that I was given of life. I wished and prayed for so long to be able to give life and raise a baby that now the only thing I do is appreciate every moment including all the diaper explosions. Every moment only happens once, why not embrace it and cherish it, whether it’s a smile, a cry, a tantrum, a diaper blowup, a hug…take every moment and remember that moment will only come once, that exact moment will not repeat itself the exact same way.
Full Time Mom Love