You know when you go on social media and everything is about staying positive and motivated. Well, thats not me all the time. I post some encouraging story or post because I want to believe that I am actually living that but some days all I want is to hide away.
Motivation and positivity is not something that comes naturally to me.I feel like that light was shut off and it takes daily effort to turn it on.
In school I was never the popular one and even while working, I was never the outgoing one. I’ve always been socially awkward. I am happy and Im always grateful for my life.
If you ask me how im feeling now, I would say, discouraged and hopeless.
At times I have high expectations of myself and if I don’t accomplish them quick I feel so unmotivated and at times feel like its easier to just quit. When I feel like quitting then I am hard on myself because I know I’m not a quitter. Its crazy the power our brains have and it could be my anxiety but I feel like daily I have to wake up and tell myself a “cheesy” quote just to get me to be just a little bit positive and grow that throughout the day little by littler. All this only to do it all over again the next day.
I don’t want to be negative on my blog but I am sure that maybe just maybe there is someone who struggles like I do daily that could share some things they do for themselves so they can move forward each day.